Contributions

It struck me last night as I was going throughout my various news sources and blogs that I read daily that I contribute nothing to the blogosphere. Anything I post is pretentious and selve serving - this has really just become my journal.

And it isn't as if I post on world topics or anything important - mostly it is all about me, what I like, and what I am thinking.

For a while, I felt a bit down about this. There are so many political opinion blogs, news blogs, religion blogs, blogs on philosophy, blogs on literature, and they each, in some way, contribute to their readers. Their readers either want to know about the subject, or the writer, or just plain what is going on. Or they want to know another's opinion about a situation.

My blog has none of this. This blog is nothing about anything, other than myself. I write about what I like, what I have done, what I feel about certain topics and ideas, etc. It serves as sort of a personal diary (which can be cumbersome - there are some things I would like to post but don't prefer to be read - at which time I have to resort to the paper variety of diary keeping).

I can't help but feel a bit ridiculous blogging. Maybe a bit (or very) pretentious and narcisisstic. I am doing nothing productive. This blog in no way enlightens anyone other than myself (I don't really thing I even have readers!). I post no opinions on world events, provide no news, etc. Most of the blogs I frequent are run by credentialled intellectuals, professionals, corporations, etc. I am a pseudostudent with no skills who simply has too much time to kill.

Everyday I consider deleting this nonsense. It isn't as if I have a huge fan base that would miss it. I post no pertinent information that must reach the masses. I am not an extremely deep thinker - my blogs, more often than not, are simply something that happened in a day or something that I have been mulling over.

But that is the exact reason I enjoy it so. It is nearly therapeutic. I don't blog because I want readers - if that were my goal, I would write about a subject more interesting than myself. This is my blog, made by me, the subject BEING ME. I write in here the same reason others write in diaries - I need to spill my thoughts out somewhere. The blog serves as an easy arena for me to discuss my thoughts, consider myself more closely, and the practice my writing skills.

So I make no apologies. Do you think my blog is ridiculous? That's fine - don't read it. Think it is immature? OK. I agree. Next? It's self servimg? Yes it is. But it works, so I will continue...

That is, unless I delete it tomorrow.